Zinda hun yaar kaafi hai..

Mere hathon hua jo kissa shuru.. use to pura karna hai mujhe..
Kabra par mere, sat utha ke khadi ho zindagi.. aise marna hai mujhe..

Kuchh mangna baanki nahi.. jitna mila kafi hai..
Zinda hun yaar kafi hai.. :(

Yes i am Changing..!!

A message worth sharing though a little longer..

*YES, I AM CHANGING*!

*Days slip into weeks, weeks turn into months and months transform into years. Calendars are changing and so am I*.

Yes, I am changing!

*In certain things age has mellowed me down, in others I have become more aggressive . Sometimes I find myself acting very wise and sometimes I just go crazy. Certain issues will have me speaking vociferously whereas at others I just shrug and remain silent*.

Yes, I am changing! 

After loving my parents, my siblings, my spouse, my children, my friends, now I have started loving myself*.

Yes, I am changing!

*I just realised that I am not “ Atlas ” and the world does not rest on my shoulders*.

Yes, I am changing!

*I now stopped bargaining with poor vegetables and fruits vendors. After all, a few rupees more is not going to burn a hole in my pocket but it might help the poor fellow save for his daughter’s school fees*.

Yes, I am changing! 

*I pay the auto / cab wala and walk away without waiting for the change.The extra money might bring a smile on his face.After all he is toiling much harder for a living than me*.

Yes, I am changing!

*I stopped telling the elderly that they have already narrated that story many times.After  all, the story makes them walk down the memory lane and relive the past*.

Yes, I am changing! 

*I have learn not to correct  people even when I know they are wrong. After all, the onus of making everyone perfect is not on me.Peace is more precious than perfection*.

Yes, I am changing!

*I give compliments freely and generously. After all, its a mood enhancer not only for the recipient but also for me*.

Yes, I am changing!

*I have learnt not to bother about my creased shirt or mismatched pants. After all, personality speaks louder than appearances*.

Yes, I am changing!

*Nowadays I don't bother if my hair is not done or fine lines are showing on my forehead. After all beauty of my soul outshines the beauty of my face*.

Yes, I am changing!

*I am learning not to let others make me feel incompetent. After all I am not only what they see in me. I might not be good at certain things but I am excellent at others*. 

Yes, I am changing!

*I walk  away from people who don't value me.After all, they might not know my worth, but I do*.

Yes, I am changing!

*I remain cool when someone plays dirty politics to outrun me in the rat race.After all I am not a rat and neither am I in any race*.

Yes, I am changing!

*I am learning not to be embarrassed by my emotions.After all it's my emotions that make me human*.

Yes, I am changing!

*I now tell  people if I like them. After all ,there is nothing wrong in liking someone*.

Yes, I am changing!

*I have learnt that its better to drop the ego than to break a relationship.After all, my ego will keep me aloof whereas with relationships I will never be alone*.

Yes, I am changing!

*I demand  for whatever  is due to me.After all, accepting injustice is almost as bad as doing injustice*.

Yes, I am changing!

*I've learnt to live each day as if it were the last. After all, it might be the last* .

Yes, I am changing!

*I am doing what makes me happy.After all, I am responsible for my happiness, and I owe it to me*.

*AND I'M LOVING THE NEW ME*

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Jaage hain der tak..

Lines which keep my dreams alive..!!

Jaage hain der tak humein.. kuchh der sone do..
Thodi si raat aur hai.. subah to hone do..
Adhe adhure khwaab.. jo pure na ho sake..
Ek baar phir se neend mein.. woh khwaab bone do..

Am awake for Long.. let me sleep for some more time..
There's still some night left.. let the morning come..
Half and incomplete dreams.. that could never come true..
Let me, in my sleep.. weave those dreams again..

Movie: Guru
Lyrics: Gulzar
Singers: Chithra K S, Rahman A R
Music: Rahman A R

Move On and Let Go..

"There's a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything, but it's not giving up, it's realizing that you don't need certain people and their crap."

There are always going to be certain people within our lives that will slow us down from our forward progression if we choose to allow them to do so.

As the quote states there is a point in life when we must realize that instead of chasing the ones who ignore us, that we must love the ones who love us completely.

Instead of trying to fix everything the way we want it to be in life, we have to work with life the way it is, and even work with variables which we would rather not work with.

It is not about giving up on people, but it is more about being able to tell the difference between giving up & moving on, and stopping others from preventing their own lives to blossom.

Not everything in life is for you and not every situation is for you to fix, sometimes you must let things be, move on, and learn how to let go..

My Attitude - My Life - My Rules

Saahil ke kinare baithe huye..

Saahil ke kinare baithe huye.. yun hi yaad aaye kuchh pal..
Maujon si uthti zindagi mein.. Khamosh lehron ka ek safar..

Kinaron ki ret par.. likhe hain kuchh naam..
Nahi hai pata humein.. kya hai inka anjaam..

Dil ko manana fazool hai.. ye na maanega meri baat..
Har pal sapno mein dekhega ye.. humsafar ka saath..

Yun to tanha zindagi mein.. chale wo kuch der hamare saath..
Par zindagi ki is daud mein.. kahin chhoot gaya haathon se haath..

-- VJ

Bas Itna Sa Khwaab Hai..!!

Jo Bhi Chaahoon Vo Main Paoon.. Zindagi Mein Jeet Jaoon.. 
Chaand Taare Tod Laoon..Saari Duniya Par Main Chhaoon.. 
Bas Itna Sa Khwaab Hain..

Yaar Tu Bhi Sun Zara.. Aarzoo Meri Hai Kya..
Main Kya Ban Jaana Chaahta Hoon..
Main Kahan Kharaab Hoon.. Main To Lajawaab Hoon..
Main Ye Manvana Chaahta Hoon..
Maan Jaa Aye Khuda.. Itni Si Hai Dua.. Main Ban Jaoon Sabse Bada..

Jo lehron se aage nazar dekh pati.. Udaan

Jo lehron se aage nazar dekh paati, toh tum jaan lete main kya sochta hoon,

Wo aawaz tumko bhi jo bhed jaati, toh tum jaan lete main kya sochta hoon..

Zid ka tumhare jo parda sarakta, khidkiyon se aage bhi tum dekh paate,
Aankhon se aadaton ki jo palkein hatate, toh tum jaan lete main kya sochta hoon..

Meri tarah hota agar khud par zara bharosa, toh kuchh door tum bhi saath-saath aate,
Rang meri aankhon ka baant-te zara sa, toh kuchh door tum bhi saath-saath aate..

Nasha aasmaan ka jo choomta tumhe, hasratein tumhari naya janm paati,
Khud doosre janam mein meri udaan chhoone, kuchh door tum bhi saath-saath aate..

Woh Aaj Humein Aazmaate Hain.. !!

Chand Lamhe Kisi ke Saath.. Yeh Jo Mil Jaate Hain..
Unhi Lamho Ko Samajhkar Zindagi..  Hum Jiye Jate Hain..

Kaise Jaanein Kaun Apna Hai.. Aur Kaun Paraya..
Yeh Rishte Kab Aasaani Se Pehchane Jaate Hain..

Waqt Kab Ruka Karta Hai Yahan.. Kisi Ke Liye..
Yunhi Kashmakash Mein Saal Guzar Jaate Hain..

Kuchh Logon Ko Lamhon Mein Mil Jati Hai Zindagi..
Aur Kuchh Log Sadaa Hi Taraste Reh Jaate Hain..

Humne Jinhe Parkhaa Hai Barson Talak..
Dekh Unki Nadani ‘Vikram’.. Woh Aaj Humein Aazmaate Hain.. !!

Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara.. Imran's Poems..

Watched Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara yesterday.. A great experience it was..!!
It goes in my collection after Udaan.. Hats off Farhan!

I can relate myself to each character in one way or the other.. its just amazing; the self realization.. meeting own-self in dead silence of sea and air.. the fight between our own thoughts and emotions.. the desire to live.. the desire to sustain the dignity of life.. and of course the value of friends..

Don't know how much everyone relates to it but Imran's poetry (Courtesy: Javed Akhtar) went deep into my heart giving the essence of life which was lost somewhere..:

I just want to pen it down to read once in a while & to remind me of myself.. :-)

"Pighlay neelam sa behta hua yeh samaa
Neeli neeli si khamoshiyaan
Na kahin hai zameen
Na kahin aasmaan
Sarsaraati huyi tehniyaan, pattiyaan
Keh rahi hain ki bas ek tum ho yahaan
Sirf main hoon meri saansein hain aur meri dhadkanein
Aisi gehraiyaan
Aisi tanhaiyaan
Aur main sirf main
Apne honay pe mujhko yaqeen aa gaya"

"Ik baat honton tak hai jo aayi nahin
Bas ankhon say hai jhaankti
Tumse kabhi, mujhse kabhi
Kuch lafz hain woh maangti
Jinko pehanke honton tak aa jaaye woh
Aawaaz ki baahon mein baahein daalke ithlaaye woh
Lekin jo yeh ik baat hai
Ahsaas hi ahsaas hai
Khushboo si hai jaise hawa mein tairti
Khushboo jo be-aawaaz hai
Jiska pata tumko bhi hai
Jiski khabar mujhko bhi hai
Duniya se bhi chupta nahin
Yeh jaane kaisa raaz hai"

"Jab jab dard ka baadal chaya
Jab ghum ka saya lehraya
Jab aansoo palkon tak aya
Jab yeh tanha dil ghabraya
Humne dil ko yeh samjhaya
Dil aakhir tu kyun rota hai
Duniya mein yunhi hota hai
Yeh jo gehre sannate hain
Waqt ne sabko hi baante hain
Thoda ghum hai sabka qissa
Thodi dhoop hai sabka hissa
Aankh teri bekaar hi nam hai
Har pal ek naya mausam hai
Kyun tu aise pal khota hai
Dil aakhir tu kyun rota hai"

"Dilon mein tum apni betaabiyaan leke chal rahe ho
Toh zinda ho tum
Nazar mein khwaabon ki bijliyaan leke chal rahe ho
Toh zinda ho tum

Hawaa ke jhonkon ke jaise azad rehna seekho
Tum ek dariya ke jaise lehron mein behna seekho
Har ek lamhe se tum milo khole apni baahein
Har ek pal ik naya samaan dekhein yeh nigaahein

Jo apni aankhon mein hairaaniyaan leke chal rahe ho
Toh zinda ho tum
Dilon mein tum apni betaabiyaan leke chal rahe ho
Toh zinda ho tum"

Bade Achche Lagte Hain - Sony TV Title Track

I have been listening to this title track of this tv series quite often. Its really nice with good lyrics, an added flavour to the beautiful original song from Balika Badhu..

I am sharing it with you all. Hope you like it:!

Just click on the link below to download the song from my esnips folder:

Bade Achche Lagte Hain - Sony TV Title Track by Shreya Ghoshal 

The Blogger is Back..

For past so many months, going through changes in life and so called busy schedule; I got lost somewhere. Stopped something I like, "Writing"!

            But today sitting at home, thinking about the changes I have gone through, happened to pass through my blog which made me recall some of my precious memories of life. Since I first wrote this blog, I always replicated my thoughts and emotions into it. It's been several months from my last post. Life has changed a lot since then; I went through lots of ups and downs professionally as well as personally.

On personal front, Life has become absolute monotonous. Last year, I ended up into a trap of emotions and sentiments. Don’t know what made me fall in love once again, or was it an infatuation: still not able to decide! It ended with lots of dramatic sequences. Whatever it was but I have some of the best moments of life attached to it.

“Sapna tuta hai to dil kabhi jalta hai.. 
Haan thoda dard hua par chalta hai….” J 

Sometimes I feel, I should be all alone with no-one around me whereas sometimes I feel, I should have someone to love, to care, for whom I can spend my whole life. But am still wandering what my destiny is! Probably I am a “Vagabond” when it comes to emotions, a lone wanderer with extraordinary thoughts.. J

"itne armaan lekar ab main jaaunga kahaan....
kuchh paane ko jo khoya phir paaunga kahaan....
Manzil kho gayi ek pal ko bas raah reh gayi....
Raahon ne yun moda ki manzil hi mil gayi...."

Tujhse naraz nahi zindagi, hairaan hoon main....

Needless to say, the life is all about experiences.... It's been more than 24 long years of life!

I can just remember the glimpse of innocent me..
I looked up the world with questions in my eyes.. Who i am..?
I didn't get an answer then.. but a series of experiences with life.. lessons at every corner.. Stepping up and Falling down the ladder.. taught everything!
I am just amazed with this world.. the ultimate creation of the almighty.. filled with emotions; Love, Sorrow, Pain, Relief, Sensual, Illusionary, Success, Failure, Drama.... etc!!

--
I realized i am what i feel.... I am what i decided to be.. I am what i never decided to be.. I am a mere creation with extraordinary dreams and hopes.. I am the "VJ" who has to host his own life and create a memorable video of memories to cherish forever !!!!

I tried to find him everywhere....

Some times in life we don't find answers to our questions. We don't even know what we are doing and why we are doing it? Today i am feeling as if i am lost in this so called world. Lost in the deep valley of thoughts and emotions. I don't seem to be finding a way out, else it seems as if i am drowning deep into the ocean. And you know what i am liking it. I am liking to be a innocent child deep into my heart who believes that even if he is drowning, someone will hold his hand to get him out it. I was watching a video from Enigma - "Return to innocence". That video made me realize almost everything about life.... I found these golden lines from it:

That's true; he is in you. he is everywhere; to hold your hands when you feel dark. He is the saviour. He is the almighty. I don't know what I will do, but it's for sure that i'll win. I'll succeed to cross these storms of life. here i am and this is me..

Broken Wings !!!!

" The best moment in life is when you start believing in yourself."

Last year was a great learning experience, putting broken pieces together, dreams shattered, trying to do more than expectations. In the end, stressed; burned out. So today I decided to follow my heart, focus on things, and give quality time. I managed to make everything, everything on time and was happy to achieve it. The above mentioned quote came to my mind and I have put it where it should be. I have started to believe in myself ... I'll share my experiences as I go further in life everyday, whenever something worth sharing comes.

I have overpowered the silver lining with my bruised wings
I know the luster of the sunshine would heal me
My nest is almost on the verge of collapsing
I know my broken wings wouldn't give up
To gather the twigs again
My slashed wings ache when I fly
Yet I continue

Something beyond the dense haze constantly lures me
I bleed quite often
But I can't settle feeling small for the sake of luxury
I shall soar
For my limits are limitless
I don't mind my stings nor the broken wings!

Its been a long time since i wrote anything....

there is a lot to write but i am just bored of typing....

For past 2 to 3 months, i've learnt a lot.... a lot about this world n this so called life!!!!

I've seen the value of money, not only for day to day needs but in relationships as well.... haah!!!! Relationships, a real joke.....

Its a real interesting fact that in today's world that.... money is everything!!!!

wo kehte hain na "Baap bada na bhaiya.... sabse bada rupaiya".

Dawn

Relationship

When we were born, did we knew anything about this world?

Did we knew who were the people wandering around us, trying to make us happy, just willing to see a smile on our face. At that point of time they were unknown to us but we meant everything to them. Later we called them parents, relatives, friends etc.

Has any one ever tried to figure out what does a relationship mean. Why do we try to relate ourselves to every one?
Believe it or not, we share a relationship with every one in this world. Don’t we !!!!

I am not referring it to biological structures or any spiritual connections.  It’s just an unknown relationship without any name.

Don’t we exchange smiles with people while travelling through our daily route!
Don’t we say hi to unknown people whom we just see daily!

Imagine the day when we don’t see the similar faces around us,

Don’t we try to find them! Don’t we feel un-easy!
Answer is, Yes we do. But, Why ????

We are never alone in this world. Even if we have no-one around us, we try to relate our own-self to our inner-self. We tend to create a bonding between heart & mind. We always try to manage a relationship within our-self.

I tried to figure out the reasons for all these things but could not get an answer. May be this is something which differs human beings from others or it may be just a unusual thought of mine. But one thing is for sure that as we walk through our path of life, we meet people everyday. Most are simply met by chance. But, some are sent our way. These become special friends Whose bond we can't explain. The one’s who understand us and share our joy and pain.  Their love contains no boundaries. So, even we are apart, their presence enhances us with a warmth felt in the heart. This love becomes a passageway when even the miles disappear.

If at times you feel you want to cry ....

If at times you feel you want to cry
And life seems such a trial
Above the clouds there's a bright blue sky
So make your tears a smile.

As you travel on life's way
With its many ups and downs
Remember its quite true to say
One smile is worth a dozen frowns.

Among the worlds expensive things
A smile is very cheap
And when you give a smile away,
You get one back to keep.

Happiness comes at times to all
But sadness comes unbidden
And sometimes a few tears must fall
Among the laughter hidden.

So when friends have sadness on their face
And troubles round them piled
The world will seem a better place
And all because you smiled...

Postmortem....

Now its time for selling terror & emotions!!!!

Its true.....

That's what is happening now. 

Instead of taking responsibilities political parties are blaming each other just to prepare their vote banks. News channels & papers are making money with the live telecast of the political fish market.

A lot of news.... ministers resigning.... forming of federal beaurou in india.... training police.... providing better ammunition.... blah blah blah blah.... !!!! Everything is a matter of few days, just a month or two. After elections everything will go for a toss. New government, new politics & again new face of terror. People will get busy in their daily chores. No-one will speak about whatever happened. Next year on the same date we will be watching a brief review of the happenings with some bright title. 

You might think what rubbish i am talking. This might hurt you for now but its is a bitter truth & history is the proof for it. Turn over the pages of history. What did we do after Delhi blasts, Varanasi blasts, Mumbai Local train blasts, Ahemdabad blasts....???? List is never-ending.

Did we do anything? ................. No !!!!!

Did govt. do anything ? ............... No !!!!

What we did then? 

Watched regular reports on news channels. Cursed politicians & politics. Sent messages, emails full of emotions. Made movies on the topic & shed some tears while watching them. That's what we are doing now as well.

Wake up ....

Only we can make a change....

Depending on anyone for the solution is a waste of time & Life. Stop being selfish for your own life. Lets get united !!!! That's the only solution....

Only Unity can make a difference ....

Jung to chand roz hoti hai.... Zindagi barson talak roti hai !!!!

This Gun battle will get over today or tomorrow. But, no one knows when will this terror end.

Probably we are getting used to carry dead bodies of our own lives drowning in the deep sea of terror. Things will never change because we are accepting the way it is.  Adjusting to the situation is what we always do irrespective of its severity.

World peace is something which seems to be unattainable.

Is this what we are about to give our coming generations as a gift? 

Most probably next generation will be used to all this. 

Bomb blasts, High Jacks, Murders, Kidnaps will be common.

They might not study but will definitely know to make bombs & shoot people around them to fulfill their basic needs....

"Zindagi ki koi keemat na hogi....

Pyaar ki koi jagah nahi....

Aman ki baat kabhi mat karna....

Bujhegi usse pyaas nahi !!!!"